I've decided I'm a coward. I have a manuscript that needs a bit of editing. The critiqued manuscripts, returned from my writer group friends, sit in a notebook on the shelf. I did take out the notebook for 5 hours on Saturday and edited my work but those pages have been sitting there for quite some time. What is my problem?!
Is it time? That's an excuse for sure. I can always set the alarm earlier (yuck).
Is it because I'm busy? Yes, I am. My theater company is getting geared up for summer camps. So?
Or is it just plain old fear? I think so. Fear of rejection. Fear of working long and hard only to find that no one wants to spend .99 on my ebook. Fear that no one will notice it's there. Fear of the wide world of critics (but will anyone be harder on myself than me? doubtful). Fear of what others might say if I go the ebook route instead of getting a traditional publisher.
Fear doesn't go away because someone tells us not to be afraid. But I love what FDR said: "...nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror..." Often, I "make" my theatre students do something that makes them uncomfortable (such as getting on a stage) but I KNOW that if I can get them to get up there, they will break through their fear and discover they can do something difficult, even when they're scared. So, I'm telling myself, it's time to face those fears and break through.
I pledge to face my fear and finish editing my book, White Fire, by March 30th, then within a week, I'll get it uploaded as an ebook!